Sanity is madness put to good use. – George Santayana
This is a picture of an antique compass that has been passed down in my family. It first belonged to grandmother. She told me that she received it as a gift when she was a young girl, and that she gave it to my father when he became a cross-country truck driver when he was a teenager. She said that she gave it to him so he could always find his way back home again. I think that I’m going to put it in my car this week. I’m going to need all the help I can get so I can find my way back home, too.
No, I’m not dead yet, but I am a zombie. I’ve been getting up at 3AM since starting my hospital orientation at Undisclosed Government Hospital, and the commute is starting to wear me out. The good news is that my 12-hour shifts are starting soon so I’ll have more days off during the week to rest. The bad news is that I’m going to have to drive myself to work. Traffic in Big City is notorious, and I have a serious phobia about getting lost. I get panic attacks when I don’t know where I’m going, so I’ve been making practice runs into Big City this weekend with my husband acting as my copilot. Today however, just before sunrise, I made a solo trip into Big City. I made one wrong turn, panicked twice, and found my way home all within 90 minutes. That means I was speeding. Hopefully I can get this down to a fine art by the end of the week without getting into an accident and without getting a ticket.
I want to wish all you moms out there a Happy Mother’s Day. Now I’m going to lay down and start breathing into a paper bag. I’m still feeling a little panicked from that last practice run into Big City. Bear with me while I try to pull my life together. I promise I’ll start blogging again on a more regular basis once I learn the ropes at UGH.
Ken in Minnesota
May 10th, 2009 at 10:26 am
Take your paper bag with you on your drive.
For the last 18 years of my teaching career, I drove 50 miles every morning to get to school by 7AM. And I drove 50 miles in the afternoon home. I got to value the morning time as mental prep and the afternoon time as de-pressurization.
This can work, and you’ll be confident of knowing your way around soon. Then someday, you’ll get to work and realize you have no memory of a large part of the morning commute.
NurseExec
May 10th, 2009 at 11:02 am
Good luck with your commute. Mine’s 45 min each way, and I don’t mind it too much. It’s my daily “thinking time”.
cruft
May 10th, 2009 at 11:37 am
get a nuvi navigator.
Jerry in the Bar Area
May 10th, 2009 at 3:52 pm
Sounds like you could use a GPS you can throw in your car. The cost varies greatly depending on the model, but peace of mind can be invaluable. Don’t use it all the time, as a crutch; but know it’s always there, programmed with your work and home addresses, ready to get you un-lost at a moment’s notice.
Jerry in the Bay Area
May 10th, 2009 at 3:58 pm
Goodness, a Freudian typo in my name! I’m really in the “Bay Area” not the “Bar Area.” I didn’t go out drinking last night, but maybe I subconsciously wanted to.
FWIW, when I start out in a new geographical area, I make test drives like you, but I also make test drives in which I deliberately try to get myself lost. Then I try to get back home. In the process I get to learn what the area’s like, where the gas stations and ATMs are, what streets connect to each other, etc.
My husband, who’s not very location- or direction- aware, doesn’t do any of this. He’s got the GPS, and he’s very happy that he does.
tammy swofford
May 10th, 2009 at 4:53 pm
I feel your pain. I get lost in my own backyard. I can go from point A to point B if I drive it and identify landmarks, such as the Starbucks with a drive-thru, the Donut shop with a drive-thru…. you get the picture!
One of my standing jokes is that the Navy could tell me I was going to Iraq, drop me off in the Arizona desert, and I would never know the difference. Who me, read a map???
I do think lack of directional sense is a recessive genetic trait. I can’t tell you which direction is east, unless I get up to watch the sunrise.
Looking forward to your return to the blog, friend!
Tammy
AzRN
May 10th, 2009 at 9:44 pm
gps is a good idea. we want you safely going back and forth from UGH. too bad there is no train to take back and forth. look forward to your next blog.
Reality Rounds
May 12th, 2009 at 6:48 pm
I once got lost in a paper bag. True story. Thankfully I only commute 3 miles to my big city hospital. You need a GPS, ASAP. It has changed my life. Can’t live without it. If I were you, I would try and enjoy the commute with a lot of NPR and books on tape.
mojo
May 14th, 2009 at 6:15 am
I feel your pain. For many years I commuted in Miami, which is hell at ANY hour. Road rage was a daily occurrence on my part, and 10+ hours of commuting weekly didn’t help. I even got stuck in traffic one day with a developing kidney stone. By the time I got home I couldn’t get out of the car. When I moved to Daytona Beach, the commute continued, but under very civilized circumstances. Little traffic, great scenery of farms, pines and rolling hills–now that was a pleasure. Here in the Keys, commuting to Key West is a true delight–water water everywhere, two lanes, laid-back pace. This is the way to do it! But I paid my dues and would NEVER want to do it in a big city again! Definitely think GPS and think of it as *your time* to decompress.
Lost Between Socks
May 19th, 2009 at 9:27 am
I named our GPS “Dora”. Purchased by my dyslexic spouse–makes finding the way there and home a no-brainer. Well, a no-backwards brainer, for sure.Worth it!!
I used it recently, driving in Detroit with major construction. Sometimes had to ignore that British voice and follow the detour signs, but Dora and I made it just fine.
I am not a commuter at heart–it is not the distance so much as the time driven aspect of it all. And all the planning. I grew up in Montana where I always sighted off the mountains to know my direction and I spent the first years here in Michigan in a state of disorietation. The GPS is great, especially if you are prone to driving by landmarks, but it is a major switch in brain mode and takes some getting used to.
Now I commute to my state.gov job in the prison system–working with acutely mentally ill incarcerated women and their keepers. My most challenging psychiatric nursing job yet.
I hope your new job at a UGH is the beginning of a satisfying experience and I look forward to hearing more about it.
dragonfly
June 3rd, 2009 at 8:44 am
Good luck with the commute. That compass is beautiful. What an heirloom.